Am I eternally hopeful or in denial....?

[Silent Chrleader]

Hey, Glam & BM.

Thank you for your warm compassion and wise advice. I sincerely value your opinions and am so very thankful for your willingness to share with me. I am constantly reminded of how lucky I am to have found friends such as you on these boards.

I know you are right and I am determined to renew my commitment to drop the rope and let my H continue freely on his journey. I do actually feel content when we don't have contact. I like my apartment. I like learning about myself and coming to understand that I am really an OK person and can be happy without H.

Tonight I went out dancin' with a group of friends. And I danced a LOT. It was fun. I even danced a slow dance! (My H always hated dancing) A friend of mine that I commute on the ferry with invited me, and there were 8 of us there (the others I did not know). One of the group was a single man who seemed to take a liking to me (or maybe it was just that I was the only one willing to dance). But he was very nice and did my ego good. And the singer in the band kept kibitzing with me (Teasing me and asking me silly questions) She said I was a live wire! That made me feel good too.

Tomorrow I am going to spend some good quality time with my kids. Maybe take them to a movie.

I have a lot to be thankful for in my life.