People at our campground said they noticed she was drinking more and more each weekend up to this happened. Nights I went to bed they say she was a stumbling drunk and always had to have people walk her home. I used to get mad and tell her to come home with me and she would say, No I am staying with my friends...She started drinking harder and harder before the bomb, now, from what I have been told, she drinks Thursday night, Friday night, Saturday and staturday night and sunday. If she is at someones house and they have a beer or something to drink, she drinks...Amy, it really showed in her face Wednesday. My D29 is really upset at how she looks and acts, she says, Dad, she's in a friggin fog...My d29 offered her something to eat last night because she said she was hungry and she turned her down, but boy, she had enuogh drinks. D29 says she wanted chinese or pizza or something. d29 just called and said its like she wants us to treat her becuase hses here. she doens't get those things unless shes with him, and she expects everyone to give her what she wants...
My SIL wouldn't come home Wednesday night or Thursday night until my D called him and told him she was gone. Bad, this is sad...
I still feel good. D29 told me about her day with MIL they had a blast. MIL feels bad for W and wants to give her a check to go buy a tire for her car. Yep, still riding on the donut...
D told her she won't buy a tire. D29 says if OM was into her, why doesn't he get her a tire. D thinks he may be geting tired of her. Again, this car may be symbolic of her conditon right now. Couple of good notes, since I still feel really good, AMy do you think its detachmetn finally settling in? It is a very strange feeling. Anyway. Came home to give D17 (mopey) some money to go out with her friends. She said thanks. I said yep, but you still need to do some cleaning to earn it. She said yep, but thats not why I thnaked you. I thanked you becuase you got me into this program, because you listened to me and knew it was right to do it. I thanked you because you listen to me. Wow!!!
D29 called me to tell me about who's coming over tomorrow. This is my first house party as a semi-single dad,Sampy, me... I am putting together a double layer gold cake with choc frosting, sausage and potato and peppers and onion casserole, and bifg pot of american chop suey. I'm excited. Anyway, she said while her mom was talking to me on the phone, she was all smiles and playing with her hair. When D29 said give me the phojen, she shushed her away and kept talking to me. She said she heard how quick she started talking before you gave the phone up. After the call with D17, she hung up and kinda sat there in a fog, playing with her hair. Not to get your hopes up Dad, but she was smiling, like, he talked to me, he talked to me...
she didn't have enough gas money to go there tonight. I am sure OM is coming up to see her, or not who knows, who cares.
I have a full house tomorrow. All of my kids, my grandbabiesm, firnds, a couple of nieces and nephews...Its exciting. You knwo I never asked if she was coming here tomorrow and no one has mentioned her. Maybe she is going away with OM, doubt it.
Yeah Amy, we were both drinking pretty hard when the bomb dropped, but I quit and she got worse, opposite ends of the spectrum. D29 feels she is only happy when she is drinking or drunk, when she is with him they are out drinking and getting drunk, so there you are. I am running around cooking and cleaning, have a huge bottle of wine in my fridge from two weeks ago and there are only two glasses missing from it. I am off the wall happy about this get together tomorrow. After they leave Sunday, I am invited to a baby shower, guys will hang int he bar of this club I am sure, but it feels good to get invited out. I mean they are her friends too. she didn't get invited.
Again, not prideful, just very happy. Still recall the conversation with her on Wednesday, the image is blurry still...I don't know if I should embrace this strange feeling or be afraid of it....Any thoughts
