Episode IV: A New Hope (?)

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Meh, my spirits oddly are up, despite everything falling down around me, I'm developing quite a hard shell. I could really care less if FIL gets pissed off or anything. 'Renter' went to hand me money in the middle of dealing with S10, looked like only $200, sorry buddy, you're in the hole for $800, one full month, so I just said "keep it, we'll deal with it later". Everybody seems to have some sort of agenda going on and it's all secretive, but I don't care.

Only thing that's pissing me off right now is the post office not calling back on why my mail stopped. I KNOW why it stopped, but I need the official confirmation, and my only other option is to walk up in zero degree weather tomorrow? I don't think so. Bad enough I have to take S10 to the library for a new card since he "lost" his. Hell, even if have to carry it all back tonight walking, I am getting all my groceries for the weekend TONIGHT while it's still dropping.

I'm also a little peaved by FIL needing this cash so desperately that I drained my account out on Tuesday and now can't even call in my electric payment on my card.

I don't know if it's a positive thing or not, but I just don't care anymore. All I care about is I now have my boys and it's like having a family again, sort of, but compared to the way family had been over the last few years, I'm sort of glad it's w/out her. Edit - and by that I mean they have stucture, something they've been lacking highly since W left and was OM immediately and gave them no attention when they were there

It's going to be a real kick in the pants for her when she comes to find out, they've been clean, fed, clothed and assisted with education, especially S11, all the while the house is clean and without her.

I know I can still fall back on my cousins offer to stay with her and we can sort something out for the boys, all I'd need to worry about is reliable wheels. So, I think I'm going to keep that card in my pocket for when all else fails.

I will say, it has been real nice having a solid week of not hearing anything about her and NO conversations about her, well from 'outside sources' anyway. Now THAT'S detachment.