Sara, I thought of that exact thought. I always felt/feel what I told him when he moved out :there is bond that cant be broken between us. All I need to do now is figure out what kind of bond this is.
As I was telling a dear friend, this time I am doing the whole thing. Control negative thoughts, be patient, loving and I will do my best to make it easier on him to express himself. I dont want anything to "cancel" this effort and second guess myself afterwards. No "what ifs" etc . When this is over I will have made up my mind and he will either move in and we have a life together or I will quit and proceed with D. Somehow the potential either way makes me feel...excited.
Our first session is on Sunday. This T knows his schedule and suggested Sat/Sun mornings. I went ahead and scheduled this Sun not to waste a whole week.
Bobbi, my S knows we are trying. I told him the truth as the T suggested. My D is avoiding to address the issue. I dont know if the two of them have discussed it. They are not seeing any big differences in our routines so that helps a bit not to have great expectations.He has only slept 3-4 time shere and we always had an excuse (somekind of an excuse).
H called and talked to me about his job. He is sucked in by an issue at the newspaper and I tried to make him see the real picture. He said he sees my point and will try to adopt the suggested attitude. I was being very careful not to sound "motherly".
Staying in tonight. Sleeping. Didnt sleep well last night. It's rainy here and will be tomoroow too. xxx K
