walk away for a bit and imagen you are someone else looking at your sitch... can you see how you hurt yourself by getting entangled with him physically over and over again? can't you see that as long as you are intimate with him you allow him to manipulate your and you are not able to think objectively??? I get it, the appeal of physical contact with him is compelling...but what happens next? it gets UGLY, it serves no purpose other than you being unable to detach yourself from this very perturbed individual.
At this point, the problem is yourself, not him, you refuse to see that this R is toxic. Step in faith and let go, love yourself a little.
Listen, you WILL be fine, you DON'T need him, you do NOT NEED HIM to live a good and happy life. Love should not be about suffering, anguish--that's all he brings to your life, nothing but anguish.
As someone told me eons ago, having the S back is icing on the cake, but WE are the cake, they are NOT our everything.
He's made you and the kids leave your house and you STILL hold a candle to him? fight for your kids, for your peace of mind LB!!
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
