If you stick around we can help you but you are going to have to keep it real with us and also get some REGULARLY SCHEDULED professional help.
Ok, I will stick around. I will keep it real.
I talked to W's friend who I know from church. She said that I need to GAL, I need to trust in God. She believes that both W and I are lost souls looking for something. W is looking in the wrong places and I'm not trusting in God.
She thinks this is a blessing in disguise - that it gets W out of the negative environment she is in because she thinks W should have never left the house. Not because it will reconcile us but because when I get myself good with God, maybe it will rub off on her and she will find her way to Him.
We will still get divorced and all I have to do is treat her like a roommate. OM won't be coming here at all and she will know that.
I have to get myself right with God. Trust. I just don't know how.
