Frank,
Maybe this is the wrong approach....
But, If I still lived in So.Cal I swear I would drive my arse over to your house and slap you silly!!!

For the love of God you are having a friggin pity party.

Excuse after excuse of why something won't work before you even try.

I just don't understand!!!

Go back and read all of your posts over the past year. Did you write all of that crap to pacify the rest of us and to make us think you were finally getting your act together?

It just frustrates me to no end when I see a grown man blubbering away and refusing to help himself.

Yes, your life may suck right now, but look at the choices you are making for yourself.

It is you who has chosen this path.
It is you who keeps picking up the bottle.
It is you who refuses to GAL.

Frank, practice what you preach.
You have given great advice to so many here and yet you refuse to take it for yourself.

There can be no testimony without a test.
I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.