Last night D18 came home from her friends house around midnight. I was up making something to eat. I had been drinking. I wasn't 'out there' but she could tell.
She got very upset and called her mother. STBX came over and D18 was crying and angry and STBX was angry and calling me a drunk and other stuff. I threw her adultery back at her and all the pain I've had to endure and we went back and forth. I told her to leave but she wouldn't. I could see that D18 was getting more upset so I went to my room so we wouldn't fight any more.
D18 gave her the letter she wrote which made STBX more upset.
This morning D18 was still upset and thought I hated her for calling her mother but I told her that wasn't the case. I told her that it was probably for the best because now I'm clear that it is over, and that I don't have a choice to not be 'sober dad'. We hugged and everyone feels better.
STBX called me this morning and said that she is moving back into the house this weekend so she can document any relapses I have and that I need to get into a program and she intends for me to move out.
Of course, she can't make me and I told her that it wasn't feasible financially. She said that nevertheless her intention is for me to eventually move out.
So, I have successfully destroyed my family for good. Didn't get help when I needed it. Just stayed in my box every day, hurting, medicating. I can say I wish I had had a wife who helped me but I didn't. Ironically, now that we're getting divorced is when she actually has the backbone to push me to get help.
Like I said, I'm a fraud and an addict. At least I am able to admit it. Sorry for disappointing everyone.
