Stepping out and Stepping UP!

[cagzmom]

Trusting is so right.

I think for so long everything I did was to try and "get my marriage back." now it is all about doing things that are best for me..and that is so wierd.

For me dark is good. I just have to go really really dark... FOR ME!! Contact with him brings me saddness and all of the questions...and I want to be done with the questions.

I do know this.. sometimes when I look forward and think about someone else in my life it is a thought that I dont like. At least with x you know what to expect... The "same" seems so much safer - and so often you just want what was..