Only look forward

[FaithfulH]

I've always been living my life KNOWING that there is nobody who will help me. Ever. That is who I am.

At first this angered me...after all that has been written here to try to help you? Then after a brief moment of reflection and prayer....I felt unspeakable JOY! Why? Because maybe, dear precious FRIEND Frank, you have FINALLY gotten to the EXACT place God wants you to be! A place most (all?) of us must go.....to the END OF OURSELVES! I know I reached a place where I KNEW that what you said above is true....there is no human on the face of this earth that will be there for you forever and always! Your W is down the street....at some point your kids will have their own lives and you will not be a part of it daily....and, well-meaning intentions aside, your friends on this board may not forever be here when you need us.....but there is ONE who will never fail you! It is when we come to this place....the END OF OURSELVES...and realize that there is one greater than any of us....that we become most useful to others....and fulfilled in the deepest sense of the word!

If you are not ready to acknowledge that, I ask that you simply take the advice of our other dear FRIENDS here who have asked you to at least take one step in the right direction....whether that is AA....or calling one of "your guys" and telling them "Today...I need you to help ME".

I will ask you to PLEASE STAY HERE! Frank, you helped ME tremendously in my darkest days....and my W and I find ourselves in a better place for having been able to call you a FRIEND. Know that we all come here because WE CARE ABOUT YOU!