Hey Walking, thanks for reading and for your helpful perspective. And of course I agree with you, 100% abut letting go! I know what its abuot though.. its fear isnt it? Fear that if you finally let go, dont pay attention, dont reply to an email, then thats it, he's gone. But he's gone anyway, I know! I am better than I was, but annoyingly, not where you are yet, no. Cant wait for that day! Its all a process though hey...

Re the finances.. he wont/cant take responsibility.. I cant ignore it, its in joint names and my credit is already screwed from times I did leave it and wait for him to step up and he didnt. Oh.. and the friends that tell me stuff, volunteer the info.. I do listen avidly (can you blame me?!) but I always stress.. please dont tell him you were talking to me about him and they say the same to me.. they are concerned to break his confidence. I get that he has to miss me... so this is the first time I HAVENT replied for 3 days! Quite an achievement!

Anyway.. as I was wondering if I should email today, I got an email from Cher...She knows whats going on.. she would TELL me to let go, if she thought it was appropriate, yet she just said this...

"About *ex* (PLEASE REMEMBER.. I am not a relationship expert, so don't blame me if I give poo advice ) but don't chat to him re: him sounding down or anything, just keep your conversations light UNLESS he brings it up!! Email him today to give him a flat update and be really cheery etc!!"

...so she isnt saying much and I still wont ask, but looks like she thinks I should carry on as I am, being light, fun, but she must think there is still a possibility of reconciliation, else she would be urging me to move on/date. She is a VERY honest girl, but her and BMF are rooting for us to reconcile.