just wanted to say that I too understand all these feelings. Yes, we want some kind of closure. Like a parent who's child has been missing, yet they are unsure of it's death. Until we actually SEE the (dead) child, we cannot properly let go.
It's a hard road we travel, and many who have preceeded have told me, it takes TIME, lots and lots of TIME.
I remember when I first came here, it was what everyone would say....time, time, time.
I still have SO MUCH to learn, so much to accept and deal with, even after all this time...as many of us here.
One day we will wake up and notice, that we have gone our own way and it is no longer important and we will be able to look back with a melancholic feeling yet realize it is no longer what we want in life. We will be at a new place.
I hope that day reaches all of us.
Take care xx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
