we had a preliminary therapy session proceeding a initial consultation for a mediation. she was stoic and angry.
then she cried all day.
I kid you not.
She never shows me emotion, never. She texts" Hi. I just wanted to let you know I'm a little apart and emotional today after the therapy this morning and T talking about us stepping onto the path and everythings making me cry and I just wanted to let you know because I dont't want to be like that in front of the kids but I'm a little afraid that I'll hug them and cry."
Then I sat with her and listened to her sorrow. It was awesome.
Then she texts "Hi, Thank you for tonight. I feel bad because I feel like I burdened you with my pain as well as your own. I really appreciated you sitting with me and hearing me. I'm not used to letting my guard down with you anymore. I would like to keep seeing T through this process. I feel like she moves us forward but together . She seems like a positive force. Even though I cried all day and drowned my phone. Hmmm. Maybe I should rethink that. Anyways, I actually am looking forward to seeing you play tomorrow. And play loud. Don't give a xxxx about what I think. Be yourself. It's the best you."
Still going forward with the divorce. Freaking weird, but that is how it goes.
I think she needs me to admit that the marriage wasn't perfect and really mean it.
So much that I'd agree that it should end.
I'm gonna divorce my wife to try to get her back.
It might not be too late.
DB give me strength to continue to move forward without my wife, knowing that she may never reconsider.
Good luck all, L
Me 41 W 39 d7, s4 M 13 Bomb ILYBNILWY November 28th, 2007
