I know this so well. I look at my xH and think "Its his voice, his body, his movements, even his smell". But he's a shell now. That 'click' we had is gone, the part that connected us. Its long gone. So I feel the difference and the distance, like you.
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Around me, XW is all steely resolve and "I'm so happy now".
Same here. xH is the exact way. According to his brothers, he stops by their houses all the time, and looks awful. In front of me, smiles and sarcasm.
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In the meantime, feeling down again. A bit. Trying to ignore it and move on with life
Don't ignore it. Accept it as a bad day/bad week. It'll get better, you know it always does. Accept it for what it is, you moving on. You can't move on without pain.
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And am glad that I recognize that NOBODY wants to be in a relationship with me right now!
lol!!! I call myself 'broken' at the moment too. We'll get there, I promise!
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When I'm ready to start dating again, you can guarantee that I won't be crying around friends of XW or sending her songs I think she'd like
You will be ready for a healthy relationship, that's why. She is running, masking, hiding, regretting, all sorts of things. When you are ready, you'll be healed. You won't regret, you won't be running. You will be ready.
