Good idea on the finding a friend. Check with the pastor at the church you have gone to and find out if they have any men's ministry going on there. Go to a meeting. It's going to be extremely uncomfortable, but it's what you need. Start up some conversations and be vunerable. That's the only way you will get out of this funk is to face your fears. And don't expect to find the perfect match the first time. Just take the step.
If they don't have a men's group, ask if they can recommend someone you can meet with, who can help you out.
Look on the web for a Celebrate Recovery group in your area. Take that step.
