WAW taking a step home?

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I am a a good man, but not a perfect man. I am Dr.Jeckyl and Mr.Hyde. On one hand, I can be exceptionally gentle and sweet and generous and loving - the perfect husband. On the other side, I can be exceptionally cold, cruel, mean. And while I am not physical, I can admit and accept the fact I had been verbal/emotionally abusive.

How do you plan to be different now?

To clarify, improvement I have been making for myself was a long, slow progressive movement in the right direction. Started with a personal/psychological epiphany that led to a full blown spiritual awakening

Yes, these ugly traits will always be a part of me, like an alcoholic will always be alcoholic, prone to slip any moment. But with some knowledge, support, and self discipline one can make big improvements for themselves.

The biggest thing IMO is taking ownership of your personal behavior. Nobody 'makes' you feel anything. YOU chose your reaction to any stimulus pro or con. When one realizes that, it goes a long way in the ability to control and master themselves. You see others in a whole new light. I actually feel sorry for people who can be rude and insulting rather than take offense by them. They are the ones who are 'broken' and ignorant of themselves and therefore deserve nothing but my pity and empathy - I was once one of them.

I am on a whole new level of personal awareness and self mastery. I am light years away from the man who my lady distorted to a cartoonish level. But I think she has been satisfied enough with what she has seen the last couple years that I am absolutely sincere and the whole 'self improvement' thing has taken legs of its own, now with almost nothing to do with her or anyone else but me. That all said, I have only begun my journey but the results encourage me to keep at it!