Being content for now.

[kissak]

Thanks everyone!

Bill, I have to say thank you for good advice. I actually had already told him these things when we talked about it some. I told him that I was afraid of him leaving after only a few weeks back and that I would only let him come home if he knew he could committ to things this time.

I also am looking for changes. It has been nearly a month I think since he first asked, maybe only 3 weeks, but I find it interesting on the weekends he has the kids, he misses me more. I honestly think he is just afraid of me going out and finding someone else on the weekend I dont have the kids....Im expecting him to miss me more tomorrow. Weird.

But I havent given him an answer either way. He did tell me his counselor said she didnt think he was ready to come back. That it werent for the right reasons. He says he thinks she is wrong. That its different this time....I am leaning more towards what the therapist is saying. He did have a session with her last week that he said "scared him". I asked what scared him and he said "comments, thoughts, etc." I didnt ask anything else though.

We did go out this last saturday night. Just dinner and movie. He was humurous about it somewhat...said he guessed we had a "date" that night.

It felt odd to me. Different. I know my feelings have changed somewhat towards him, and I think thats it. He really has alot of work to do if he wants me back.

Maybe I detached a little too much? I dont know. He does call me or at least texts me everyday. He worries if something seems wrong with me or if I dont say alot. Cant figure it out really.

I honestly have been so interested in reading a series of books lately that I havent talk to him too much! I went and watched the movie that started it all....Im hooked.

Oh well. Its been an off week for me...kids out of school a few days and it snowed a few inches, which shuts everything down around here for days...school included. And I havent worked much either.

Hope everyone is doing good!!