Nothing in particular happened. It is just that every few days I get this sort of objective glimpse of my situation. My husband has chosen to walk away from me. And not for the first time. How many times did he take off for the night while we lived in Kansas City? And he went through all the steps of getting an apartment except for actually moving...then he moved to Iowa and even told our son he was not going to live with us ever again.
Of course he DID come back home...but now he is leaving again. I just see this pattern the past year of him leaving, leaving, leaving. I don't see how that could be the actions of a man who truly loves his wife. I know he is messed up, that is why he is going to counseling, but it still sucks.
Even now, he has chosen to move out of our home and into a crappy fixer-upper. I truly do realize that our marriage does not stand a chance unless he gets that 'space' to figure out his own life by himself. But I am starting to wonder if I could ever let him back into my life when he has shown me that he can and will walk away when things get rough....
