Thanks peace, na, sh and glam for always supporting me. I haven't been around much because I have been so busy...being busy is such a good thing when you are in a situation like this. Anyhow here is the update...

My H and I been having almost daily contact. We have been getting along extremely well but still nothing really changes. Sunday my H came over and he made a very nice dinner for me and the kids. While he was here, he brought up that he wants to plan a trip next Christmas to the same place he and his D have gone to for the last two Christmas'. He made it sound like a family trip but did not come out and say he wanted me or the kids to come. I was annoyed so I had to ask "If you can plan next Christmas, do you ever see yourself living here at this house?". Of course, he felt pushed so he came back with he likes being on his own, blah, blah, blah! Then I got upset told him then we should D. He then back-tracked and said he was having difficulty with the thought of living together but he is working on it. When he left that night he said he wanted to get together on Tuesday so we could discuss things before our C appointment on Wednesday. So, we met yesterday and it is all about issues he is still having...how he likes his autonomy and he has doubts that we can come up with a financial arrangement that we are both comfortable with. Nothing got resolved and we were going to continue the discussion at C today but my H got the time mixed up AGAIN and ended up showing for just the last few minutes of the session. During the few minutes he had with the C, he made it seem like he is willing to try to work out some financial arrangement with me. I tell you, it all makes me feel like I am taking crazy pills! My H told me he would call me tomorrow to discuss things more.

So, I still don't know where any of this is heading. I do know that I really care less and less about it all. I know I will be okay no matter what happens. This is a good place to be and I just know that life is too short to put everything on hold. I believe we need to learn to be happy with ourselves and hopefully then everything else will fall into place.

(((HUGS))) to you all.