Don't think I am missing anything, yeah pity is a pretty off word, but really the best descriptor. Al I am getting through is what He has been saying to me, be understadning, be compassionate, be there when she reaches out to you. become wha tit is she needs now, I felt I was some of that today. I felt little standoffish to her, but i think mostly because D17 was there and didn't want to give her a false impression. she was actually irritated that her mom was tlaking to me so much because she wanted to leave and i just let her mom keep going. I can't remember a time when my daughter said, well can you guys finish up the conversation so we can go....Kinda funny now that I think of it...No, just reall happy with how I feel, I handled myself, how I lsitened to her without any me, or money or you were worng or R/M tlak, just listened, intently.
i don't think I am hiding anything just wanted to let it all out in case there is something anyone can see. But happy, very happy about me..And no not because she has it rough, but because for 5-8 minutes today, i was more to her than anything else...And all we did was talk. she tslkd, I smiled and nodded. I am sure she gets a lot of agreement form OM and her friends when something bad happens about oh wow, they werre wrong, this was wrong, you don't deserve this...Reality is hard pill to swallow after living in lala land...God I hope I am not hiding something, I feel too good...
