Oh, by the way, when I say instinctively, you know who guides that reaction now. My walk is working, I am no richer or poorer today, but I am better and feel better than ever since this began. I had not one negative thought the ride there, or at all after, I have had nothing but good thoughts, about ME!. DB'ng is working for me, I can tell you that. LRT seems to be getting going. But mostly now, I am calm, my mind is clear, I have no desire to talk over her or debate her or anything. I looked at her almost angelically today. and thought to myself, wow, ....
I have done everyhintg ove the past few months for me, my daughter and my home. i have done well, I have struggled, I have given up more and I am not missing it, and I felt today, that, again not meaning this competitively, but in the race for a complete and fuller and happier life, she isn;t even in the same stadium as me. i don't pity her because she has nothing, I pity her bvecause she is lost, she is where I was...That's why I pity her. I f she could do what I have done, self evaluation, self revelation and seeking answer from a higher authority, then she will see the light and folow it home. aMi wrong to be feeling so good about myself right now?
No. It's good to feel good about yourself if you feel good about yourself for all the right reasons. I'm glad you feel good about the interactions you've had, too. I don't know what's bugging me. Could be the term "pity". Could be absolutely nothing to do with your sitch - just the recall of my own. I'm just not sure.
You're saying a lot (here)- which is good - but I feel like something is missing or like maybe you are trying to convey too much to us here and in the past, that has meant something was amiss in a poster's real life...But like I said, it might not be you at all. It could be me. I'm not trying to be a wet blanket but I'll just have to get back to you...
