No hopes, no expectations. I told you I have neither of those, just my Faith and my belief, faith in my walk, belief in my walk and all that will keep me.
This is not a sign from her, and I don't expect it is. But it is a strange feeling right now. She looks worn, she looked tired, she tried to seem happy and carefree and it didn't work. All i could do was listen to her, because it felt so good to hear her voice and hear her talk to me, to me. To be the focus of her attention, evne for that brief period of time about something that is really upsetting to her. and it made me gfeel good, about just being me.
Is she testing the waters? I she coming around? who knows, who cares....What is important is she knows she can talk to me and I will listen, i don't judge, I didn't ask when I will get all my money i didn't arrange a "plan" for payments and I didn't tell her to forget it. because, really, none of it mattered. what mattered was dauighter in school, W has money for gas, repo'ng her car upset her, she is broke, i am not rich, butr I will not turn my back on her. Is my road paved and clear, yeah, baby, you know it is. I feel my walk is picking up speed now, one way or the other. But there is something still, something i cannot feel or understand, it is something He is moving me on this walk and talking with me, the paln is under way, Hi swords to me are clear, "Be understanding of her , be compassionate to her confusion, be there when she calls and open yourself when she needs you." i did all of that today and it feels really good.....
