Your in pain. You miss him. It is normal, he is not.
Let go.
He is not the same person he use to be right now.
We are here for you.
Let God be your spouse for the season.
He will not let you down.
Closure has to come from ex, you cannot force him into it.
Trusting
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11