Oh, by the way, when I say instinctively, you know who guides that reaction now. My walk is working, I am no richer or poorer today, but I am better and feel better than ever since this began. I had not one negative thought the ride there, or at all after, I have had nothing but good thoughts, about ME!. DB'ng is working for me, I can tell you that. LRT seems to be getting going. But mostly now, I am calm, my mind is clear, I have no desire to talk over her or debate her or anything. I looked at her almost angelically today. and thought to myself, wow, ....
I have done everyhintg ove the past few months for me, my daughter and my home. i have done well, I have struggled, I have given up more and I am not missing it, and I felt today, that, again not meaning this competitively, but in the race for a complete and fuller and happier life, she isn;t even in the same stadium as me. i don't pity her because she has nothing, I pity her bvecause she is lost, she is where I was...That's why I pity her. I f she could do what I have done, self evaluation, self revelation and seeking answer from a higher authority, then she will see the light and folow it home. aMi wrong to be feeling so good about myself right now?
