Well i was just with her. I am going to keep up LRT for a while longer. After our meeting with school and D17, got her into a program that everryone agrees to, Thank God, she asked me for $10 gas money. She is broke since they took her car and her dad could only lend her so much and the rest wiped her out and she is busted til next week and she'll pay me back and she knows she owes me money for the car insurance and if the car wasn't smashed up she would have told them to keep it. And then went on with how she was pissed they took it and she called then and made arrangemetn and even though I didn't pay them the agreed amount I gave them something. to which I said I gave you your mail with a note on the fron saying you need to deal witht hsi stuff tomorrow, Thruday before the repo. she says Oh I called everyone and they said OK and never called back and blah, blah, blah. She kept looking away biting her lip and looking down while she talked so I know she was lying.
Amy, I looked at her with pity! she looks rough, not awful, but her partying lifestyle and her choices that she is living with and dealing with (dealing LOL) are really taking its toll. Her car is definitely symbioliic of her life. It looks worsse everytime I see it, its isn't being maintained all that well, can't aford to maintain it or own it, She is limping along on her spare tire STILL!!!!. All I had was pity....I never said anything about the money she owes me, nothing, I didn't say yeah you owe me, no don't worry abou t it, let's work something out, I said nothing...I had an expectation today , THAT SHE WOULD LOOK GREAT LIKE SHE ALWAYS DOES AND BE ALL HAPPY WITHOUT A CARE IN THE WORLD. Got, looking rough, not really understanding anything, and miserable and laughing about all her misery....
I listened to what she had to say about everything. you know how you sound if you want people to think you are in control by laughing about things that really hurt. She didn't cover it well. I gave D17 a kiss goodbye and told W by she said see you later and I said Yup...Never looked back. Wow,,is this what detaching feels like?
