Meeting with school today and getting D17 into this Alpha program. They couldn't get hold of my W,so I called her yesterday at work. told her the time and everything and she said she's try to get there, a lot going on with her mother coming in and she was going to pick her up, and all kinds of hemming and hawing. I told her if you don't make it I'll fill you in. She said she'd call me if anything changes. She called my house yesterday and spoke to D17 and told her she was going to pick her up after work. she doesn't work on wednesdays, whatever. Older D called and siad her mother told her she couldn't pick up MIL because of this meeting. D29 may not be able to either so we'll see.
D17 seems to be showing her mothers attitude towards me, seems to be distancing herself. It worries me a little. Went to bed last night, prayed and then this I kept saying over and over without any rhyme or reason, "She's not coming back, we're never going to be together again" I just kept saying it out loud over and over at least 50 times. I prayed for that thought to stop, but it wouldn't. Got up this morning and couldn't say it, made me feel better. I just couldn't say it.
Don't know what it was, maybe prepping myself for a stand off attitude when I see her today. I will be very pleasnat and nice, cheerful but concerned. My grandson got bit by a dog in the face yesterday. He's ok, but io guess it was a good one, little dog, but still a bite.
Not looking forwad to seeing W today or when her mother is up. She told me on the phone there is something she needed to ask me, but she couldn't remember. My son had called me a couple of weeks ago and asked if my W had called me. I said no, why would she call me, I am not part of her life, she never calls me. He said, oh, just wondering. So something is up, God only knows.
Prayed for the image of my walk last night. finally got it and I am still walking and moving a long, slow and steady, last image I can remember before I fell off to sleep.
