I always watch the titles. Sometimes.. they are misleading.. other times.. they are spot on.
They all say something.
"I was reading SC's post of last night."
This concerned me some.
"I could have written that post."
I have not read it. I am having a hard enough time.. just keeping up with you.
"Our lives don't have many similarities but our paths brought us to a point where we doubt where we should be and what we should do now."
The simple look at that.. says there is more than meets the eye.. when you really look at it. Lots of different things can happen.. but we are all left with similar thoughts. People are people.. the Emotions are the same.. even if they come from different circumstances.
The path.. really has nothing to do with the result.
"I know now what is wrong and it isn't related only with my H's inability to act as a man in love. It also has to do with me and the fact that it is too late in so many ways."
So quit. Why did you even try.. if it was too late? It sounds and looks like a exercise in futility to me. And.. what you have written.. and how you are reacting.. just proves the point.
Bill once said to me.. he did not fully believe the power of "you".. or what others can see.
They can.. it is as simple as that. You as a person can change things to be what you want it to be.. but you have to do it 100%. Any doubt will set you up to fail. This I am 110% sure on.
Is what you want just gonna fall at your feet? No.
It is that pointed position that is gonna work. If he wants to follow he will. If he does not.. he won't.
Are you gonna look like a ass if it fails.. yes.
Are you gonna be hurt?... yes.
Who cares.
If all of this is worth it.. DO IT.
If not.. STOP.
I posed a "crazy" situation to Ian.. involving jumping from a plane.
I was never the one that was gonna jump. I did not have a parachute on. If he traded with me he was surely not gonna make it. Logical people don't jump from 40,000 feet.. cause chances are.. you are gonna fail. You have to overcome a lot of "things" in order to win in that jump. The "Crazy" part comes in with.. it takes a lot of "people" to win in that jump. It can be done.. it has been done... by very few people.
"The ideal outcome would be to create a good R with my H and live a happy life with our kids. Happy, content, fun, exciting, interesting..."
What do you have to give up.. to make that happen? What happens if you give the right thing.. at the right time?
"I am not sure that is possible anymore. Because my heart is gone."
"I wish I could just say "it's over", move on, and know that he, the kids and I will be alright."
I challenge you tonight/this morning. Just do it. Just start pushing forward. He does not factor into this.. he left. Lets do this. Lets get it over. You deserve better. NO sarcasm at all.
"I want to sit with him, hold him and cry and tell him, "I am sorry darling, we f@cked up, this is over, we missed the chance, the time, we broke the glass and the glass can't be glued back together again..."
It was never my intention for you to glue back what you had. You are simply choosing a new glass.. that is much better than the one you had. Someone will have to lead.. and select a glass.
Pay attention.. to who follows.
All I gotta say is.. it sucks to be you.
But you got a lot of people "pushing".. for you to be you. I am gonna be your biggest cheerleader. And I am gonna fight off the "nasty".
No DQ. Cause that makes people unhappy... and tends to offend.
You gotta choose.
And lead the way.
Good Night.. and Good Morning.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
