bizarre news...so...even though I saw B's father last weekend - and he told me he wished that we could work things out - and gave me all his BS about wanting to help, blah, blah, blah...I heard today that he's telling people that B and I are no longer married - and so he's planning on phasing me out...so strange...I can't say that I mind not having anything to do with him - but hearing about this - and what he's saying - just makes me wonder what else B has been saying about me now...
It's strange and sad...here is what's chaning in my life right now: I have lost my wife. My wife moved out. I now only get part time with my baby boy. I am going to move to a new place. I am looking for new work (something more fulfilling). I am a single parent to sometimes two boys, sometimes one. I am alone a lot. I no longer talk with people that were like family to me - however strained - for almost ten years.
What shocks me is that B's parents don't even seem to care that they're losing all contact with my S11 - whom they used to introduce as their grandson before our baby was born...
Sometimes I feel overwhelmed by how much is changing - but then I take a few deep breaths, stop crying, and remember that I have an opportunity here to improve my life in some dramatic ways.
