Strange day for me today. Today is the day I am to go out and start moving my stuff out of the house. X called this morning to set up the time. I have no expectation of her as to what will go on whil I am out there. However, I expect that I act confident, dress well, smell great and treat her with the up most respect. The key to that is getting my anxiety under control. I thought I was at a point where I could go out there and not get upset. Not there yet. I have no desire to see her or even be at the house. If the stuff I am getting today wasn't somethings I need I think I could walk away from it and never return there again. I hope that she does see the positives and changes. Even though I am dating and have one gal that I really like I would love to work on a new M with X. Hope that is in the cards. But as I have said before, no expectations. I have a new found confidence that has changed my outlook. If she decides to work on a new M great if not, its not the end of the world. Will have to post when I get home tonight. B
