oops, didn't mean to hit the post button. I am soooooo computer literate still (not).
-I ask for help with "stuff"...little chores at home, etc. from H and S16 (can't believe S11 is now S16). They seldom complain, and I don't feel as overwhelmed by holding the world on my shoulders, which in turn led me to feel bitter and used, creating emotional distance.
-I take medication for depression. I had taken some cyclically for years for pms, but within the last 6 months have started a different type continually. After I have started to feel better, I've come to realize that I have been depressed for years. Now, of course, H's stinkin' A, S's illness, death of family members, are part of that, but I now see that even before any of that and seperate I was very depressed. In fact, it makes it seem like more of a miracle to have a positive outcome to my sitch. I only now feel like I'm starting to get on level playing ground.
-I try to do one thing, even if it's tiny, that is relaxing and enjoyable every day. It's usually simple things, but it makes a difference. Standing in the sunlight for 10 minutes, standing in a hot shower, Going to bed before H and reading for a bit, or sometimes just pulling the covers up to my chin and going to sleep if I'm pooped.
-Doing some fun things just for me every now and then...going antiquing, gardening, etc.
-Telling H how I feel about things, instead of "stuffing" everything...
-and, big for me...beginning to ask for what i want.
