Am I eternally hopeful or in denial....?

[Silent Chrleader]

.......Let's try and come up with some things we could do...........Let's let our h's blow in the wind for now. It's their loss all the way around, ya know?

Here Here!!! I'm with ya, BM!!!

Most all success stories I have read happened after the LBS really let go.....I mean REALLY let go as in didn't figure it was going to happen and started moving along with their own life. Although I try to do the "right" DB things, I know that in the back of my mind, I always hold on to hope, and I wonder if that's a bad thing...?? I'm really not sure. Is that not fully "letting go"? Can I really let go of it?? Is that within my power? I can choose not to focus on my hopes or let them rule me, but can I choose to let it go? If so, I sure haven't figured out how to do that!

BUT.....I know that what I need to do is.....

1. Keep going to IC to work on ME!
2. Spend good quality fun time with S17 at least a couple times a week.
3. Get together with adult friends at least once every a week for dinner or something fun!
4. Find some sort of hobby that I enjoy (yoga....??)
5. NOT call H at all! Leave all contact to him, unless it's emergent with S17. Financial stuff I can e-mail.
6. Concentrate more on my job! I have not been nearly as dedicated at work as I have been in the past and they have been supportive of me, but I have to cut that crap out! My job is my stability and I am lucky to have it!
7. I need to get back to exercising! I have not gained any of the weight I lost back, but I am not loosing really any morem and I need to build my health, physical strength and endurance.

In short, I need to be the best me I can be for ME!