PD and I talked about this for a while tonight and he said that even when he was down on his luck financially and had very little, he saved pop cans for some money but still saw his kids no matter what. That's the kind of person I wish was the father of my kids. I want my kids to feel as important as I know they are from both their father and from me. I can't look at them and not help but think of what he's missing. It makes my throat tight and my head hurt. I don't give respect to money. To me, it's an excuse to say I have no money and I can't see my kids. Money isn't what the kids want from him nor is it their expectation. They would like to spend some time with their dad which is really priceless and cost free. I would gladly help him with gas money since he's saying that's a problem, too. Right now, I need to kind of calm down so I can maybe suggest some of that stuff to him but basically, his last e-mail indicated an all encompassing "I can't afford to take the kids right now" sort of mentality.
I went on and on about this stuff and erased it. I guess my sails are losing wind. I just don't get his mentality and lack of fatherliness. : )
I can tell you're a thoughtful father, Mr. FL. Congratulations to you and thanks again.
