I posted to you earlier on the subject of the lost papers but see that somehow it did not get on your thread.
You sound resigned and accepting. There may be alot of emotion for you too. I'm sorry, truly sorry. Even though you "knew" he would likely want to proceed, you had some hope. The hope can keep the sadness at bay and now you may be feeling that sadness more.
I want to tell you all the things that I hope you know and believe... you will be loved 100% and will be in a happy, committed relationship. It could be right around the corner but whenever it happens, you'll embrace it and move forward happily.
