Maybe I should be in piecing part 5?

[Hope4us]

Oh, I know you're right Pup. She gives me "just enough" to real me back in when I push her.

3 dozen? I would have guessed closer to 4 dozen, LOL.

What I'm going to do about it is at some point soon, I'm going to tell her I'm seeking a transfer back to our hometown and I just don't see her moving back with us, and why.

I'm going to wait some because she's in a really busy/difficult stretch at work. I WOULDN'T do that to her, regardless of how I am feeling, because she really needs to concentrate and it wouldn't be right of me to do this to her while she's so involved with the chit at work. This work stretch should be over mid-Feb to sometime in March. Theres also this bed thing. I see it being so funny that she'll sleep in bed with me when we're not home, but when we're away she has no problems. Thing is, I KNOW there have been a few times in the last couple weeks that IF we had the new bed I could see us being closer (again ladies, I'm not talking about sex), but that bed is a big stumbling block for her.

In the mean time, I'm just going to detach more and more and live MY life like I want to. Me and the boys. And if she tries to pull me back in, I ain't going there without something real in it. I guess this approach works in a couple ways. Gives me peace of mind and lets me observe if she truly is making progress.

And one more thing I thought of Sakaro (and not being angry here). There is no way I would stop and get myself a Latte and not ask her if she wanted one. That's not who I am. She may not tell me Happy Birthday, but I'm just not that way. Doesn't matter what she's done to me or how she continues to treat me, I'm not going to change WHO I AM. If that makes me a doormat, so be it.

So yeah Pup. It's just another instance. Water off a ducks back. I actually found it kind of funny. How can someone be so self absorbed? Like I said, she may surprise me tonight, but I'm guessing it will be the obligatory "do you want to go out for dinner for your birthday?" And I just don't think I'm going there. Maybe I'll go out by myself. That would be the BEST PRESENT I could give myself.