If he was so convinced you truly loved him he would not stop at kissing you on the cheek and neck. In fact he'd feel secure enough to quit both his jobs if you wanted him to.
I dont know anymore fb2. I think the problem is the opposite, that he still thinks I love him as I have the last 12 years. And sadly, this is not the case anymore. If I could make a decision with no consequences, I would divorce him. If he would die tomorrow, I would be heartbroken and sad for the years to come. Contradicting but true. He is a piece of me, (even if FG doesnt agree). Almost like my x husband who by the way still is a dear friend.
fb2, you are advising me to be loving. I understand, I see what you mean, please accept me saying I am not able to. This is no lie. This is the truth. The more I "grow", the smaller he looks to me. Soon, very soon, I will have to make a choice, with which I will have to live by. I will take the responsibility for my choices. Love K
