I have never for a moment thought you were stupid, but I do believe there is something slightly out of whack here. It takes all sorts to make the world go around though and this place is for people to come and vent and let off steam etc. Maybe it is just not your time to move on.....it IS different for everyone, and you do sound as though you are getting closer - but another year(!).
I just feel that when people don't wiggle their ra ra pom poms at you and shout 'good job Ali' etc you get very defensive.
You have gone through the realms of his depression in huge detail, you talk about his communications endlessly and what others think he may be thinking, (which is anybody's guess; real crystal ball gazing). You agonise about when/ if to contact him and what to say??????
But if this place gives you the outlet you need and the support you require then it's a good place for you.
Personally I would get an agent to manage your joint properties and move to an area populated by more eligible guys your own age when you can.....you sound like you would be a great catch for some guy.....and way to GOOD for this one.
Enough said.
Saffie me 46 H 46 M in 1986 D20,D18,S16,D13 H's A 01/05 to 07/06 H recommitted to M 07/06 renewed vows 09/06 Going from strength to strength
