Cleaning out Clutter - ? For Men

[MsMelancoly]

Well, just a bit of journaling. Not much new on the H front. No contact from him since 12/21. I will contact him later this week, to talk about getting or keeping the D ball rolling. I'm done going down my cheese tunnel of trying to be friends or making this M work. The door will remain cracked open, but that's about all. Content I am with my decision.

I went out last night with 3 male friends. (2 of them are actually more acquaintances than 'friends'). It seems I have more male friends/ acquaintances than female. Strange how that is. We ended up doing some bar hopping - or maybe one should say bar stopping to try & find an ok place to hang out. I say bar stopping because 2 of the places were playing rap music & none of us are hip on rap, so we immediately left. One place even had rap kareoke - isn't that funny!! Friend 1 & 2 were more in a down complaining mood. Friend2 (MF2) was complaining so much it started to become funny. Friend3 & I hit it off like the last few times we met talking & joking around. Actually MF3 has been more of an acqaintance over the many years that I have known him. Slowly, it seems we are becoming friends. His D was final last week - so I offered my congrats & condolences. I always thought MF3 was handsome, so we will see if this acquaintance progresses any further into a friendship. Funny thing, but I was doing so well limiting my drinks (rum & coke), but then at the end of the night I had a fine Pabst. Oh, did that due me in. I woke up feeling like the living dead & not the walking living dead either!! The unfortunate thing is, is that MF1 called to see if I wanted to go get coffee with MF3. (MF3 crashed at MF1 house instead of driving home, 30 minutes away). Yes, as you can guess MF3 is a bit shy, but I was left with his phone#. Oh, kick, kick, kick myself for missing out on the coffee with MF3 because I was hungover & sickly!!! I did call MF3 later to apologize for not calling back sooner. I told him of my reasons & we chatted for a bit. It was nice & maybe that will break ice for him to call me sometime. We will see. It was very nice going out with all 3 of them, being social, chatting, joking around and getting some attention. Oh, I'm such a hermit.....