Hey thats beautiful... thankyou. Yes, I was just thinking earlier how much better I feel, in that the feeling of being 'on' all the time, anxious, churned up.. its all gone and I am just left with a deep sadness. I wondered if I am in the latter stages of grieving. I dont have any anger or fear left now. I know he is gone. I do have some glimpses of jealousy lately, but not about Helen, but about his life in general.. as I feel I am still 'recovering' from the bomb that went off in my life and playing catch up.. whereas he has the career, good mates, the new gf (ok ok, so he has depression too!).

For those that like to hear my astrological ramblings.. I have had a major Uranus transit directly over my Sun this past year. Uranus transits are described as sudden shocking events in the life - textbook def. is like a bomb going off. I thought it was interesting that the ending is referred to here as "the bomb". How true.

Ha, I was going to abbreviate your name then and say Hey TIT! But, being English, that sounded too much like I was insulting you Also.. its early days for your sitch, so give yourself more time hey.