ARGGGG!!!!! We are texting today and everything is okay. He has been quiet so I was asking if everything was okay. He says yes, that he has just had a lot on his mind - life and work. I told him that D4 and I were headed to WalMart and he says "Oh, OW and I are here, maybe I'll see you."
I didn't reply back after that. I should say that I have no proof that this lady is OW. What I do know for sure is that this wench is living at my house and that her furniture is in the master bedroom where H sleeps and that she gets dressed in the master bath in the morning. She has clothes in D4's room and other stuff everywhere in the house. What was supposed to be two weeks of helping someone out has turned into three months of a non-rent-paying squatter (in my opinion, mind you) with no end in sight. I haven't asked and he hasn't informed. So I am calling her OW because I think at minimum there is at least EA, don't you guys think?
I go ahead and go to WM because I am not going to rearrange my life to avoid him. I want this to work, remember?? So he sees D4 and I and I keep walking because I am not going to go speak to him while she is there. I just can't do it. I'm not that strong. Does he follow us then? Well, no, and I realize DAM was expecting me to go play nice. got to be FKM.
I keep shopping. Almost done. Head out of groceries to cd's and he sees us and comes over. Talks for about 5 min about superficial stuff and kisses D4, then departs back to OW. Seems to have no problem with it. I walk away and D4 asks where her daddy is going and I tell her with OW. Maybe I shouldn't have, I don't know.
Part of me feels like I deserve this, because I had the A. But dangit!! He knows exactly what he is doing and he is doing it out of spite, and that is what really pisses me off. Then he texts me later "Are you okay?" Got to be FKM!!@!@!
I am still shaking. But I guess this is what my life is going to look like if we can't work it out isn't it??
J, you talked about payback and I thought I had seen some, but him expecting me to just come on over and play nice was over the top. It never even crosses his mind "How would I feel if Mel expected me to come talk to her when she was with OM?"
I stayed calm and cool and made no derogatory remarks, I just let everything slide and didn't answer. Surely he figured it out after he opened his mouth. I am so mad!! I know I have to get used to it, because this may be how things are, but I don't deserve to have it shoved down my throat, either.
He is going to blame work and life for sitting on this marriage and not making a decision to work it out or not for the next 8 months, I just know it. How are any of you that patient? I like things settled, and I'm not sure I can handle 8 months of him sitting on the fence with the future of all our lives in his hands. I know D4 and I will be fine no matter what, because we will go on and move forward. But letting him have the ability to walk back in in 6 months and say yeah, let's try, is hard.
I am so frustrated!!!!
Mel
"Standing knee deep in a river and dying of thirst."
