Have read a few of your posts and I think it'll help with you going dark, in that I think you need to take the time to heal yourself. It seems you have had some responses from W and you expect everyting to turn around too quickly. You have to learn to be patient. You need to stop talking about the R and what she is up to. Stop any snooping and just concentrate on yourself. GAL and 180 so that when she does get in touch she can see something different. Please take care of yourself and look and feel good otherwise why would your W want to come back?
