Thanks for the advice. I guess at the moment I am happy either way, H back or not. I have truly forgiven H and I knew this from the last time I saw him a few weeks ago, and actually feel a little sorry for him. It is so obvious he still cares about me by his body language (looking at me when he thinks I'm looking away, wants to help me with things etc). I think he also feels morally obligated to stick to his decision and not mess me about!! It seems being "in love" is more important then respect for him, at this moment in time anyway.
It's a miracle I am still here as I didn't think I had the patience and that is something different for me but as I see him less and less I also feel less and less. I guess with the papers going AWOL he has an opportunity to reconsider. I will e-mail him and let him know the papers are missing and then see what his reaction is.... but I think I know that he will still want the divorce and the way I feel I think it may be best in order to get closure. It's either a marriage or nothing. I can't be friends.
