Time for me to change....scared as Hell! 2

[theotherhalf]

I really have no idea what my H feels, if anything other than what works for the moment. It really doesn't matter. I try not to think about it anymore.

I agree, we both need the space. I've known that all along, but fear is what kept me from letting it be. No more.

and then today...
I really didn't think H would be around here today. He knows that we are home and in the last couple of weeks we've not seen him on Sundays. But even so I had thought that if he did I would either stay in the basement or leave saying I had to run errands. Well about 10:30 I was making breakfast for the girls and I look out the kitchen window and there sat his truck. Sh*@!! I was still in my pajamas, and in the middle of cooking. I had enough time to dress and comb my hair and he came in. He smiled when I came out of the bathroom. I said good morning.

He sat and we had a very pleasant conv. I didn't ask him a thing. He just poured it out there. He told all that he did over the weekend (whether it was truth? Don't know, don't care) told about family stuff going on, told about stuff he did during the week, etc.

He left to go to the other place and the girls and I went outside. He came back and followed us around. He went to the basement. I went back out and busied myself outside. I went in we talked again. All in all he was here about 3 hrs. I stayed busy and didn't ask him a thing. It all kind of tickled me. Obvious he is missing us. Huh.

Trust me, this doesn't change a thing. I really really am just fine! I will keep on keeping on and let him be. There is no more going back for TOH!

P.S. Yesterday when I got home from town H had to move D17's car to get the tractor out of the shed. He parked it in front of the shed door where I park my car and left it there. (never done this before he'll usually move it back). I was ticked. He did it just to be an a*s I was sure. But I just let it go. Doesn't matter. It got brought up today, I told him when I had to move it I was thinking what a inconciderate a&s. He laughed and said he did it on purpose. I just laughed with him and let it go. So now I'm thinking..."did he do it on purpose just to yank my chain, see if I'd respond? (old TOH would have in a heartbeat) Ha! I passed with flying colors