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[Luci]

Bad day. VERY bad day.

SO is talking to his father for the first time in 30 years. His father and his step-mom are great people, and we're having a great time getting to know them. They want to start to take SD over nights, but BM is upset because she doesn't know them. Understandable. SO they plan on doing a dinner.


BM hates me. REALLY hates me, and I'm not sure why - I don't have much interaction with her. I was told that this dinner really had nothing to do with me, it was about his parents and BM getting to know each other, so I shouldn't be upset if I'm not invited.

And that I accepted.

UNTIL:

I find out today that it's a dinner where SO, his parents, BM, SD, SD's sister (BM's daughter from another marriage), BM's new boyfriend will be attending.

BUT STILL NOT ME.

I fail to see how BM's daughter and her boyfriend have ANYTHING to do with SO's parents getting to know BM. And when I point out that it makes me feel like poop because -yet again- I'm Public Enemy #1, he says he refuses to make a situation awkward for everyone, and why would I want to put myself across the table from someone that hates me?

Okay, I see his point. I'm not unreasonable, I get what he's saying.

But to me? It feels like I'm being left out of a family function because his EX dislikes me and no reason other than that. It makes me feel really worthless to him. Like HER feelings are more important than ME.

I am IN SO'S LIFE, as his partner now. You can't just exclude me from all the time because BM's got a problem with me.

You know, if he were to say, "Look, I understand that you're still upset with Luci. But out of respect to her being unable to be here, I'm going to ask we keep this between my parents, you and me"?

I'd have NO problems. NONE. Because that shows he respects me and he's understanding of the "Luci against the world" situation that was created.

TO make matters worse, I approached him with how I felt and he yelled at me. Told me that it "made no effin' sense" as to why I'd want to make a situation worse for everyone and why I wanted to be some place I wasn't going to be welcomed.

That really upset me, a lot.