For the Guy with Kids and a WW 23

[hopeful4her]

Beej, I didn't mean to ignore you. I AM in reality mode and doing pretty well. I have my moments of sadness still, but fewer than before.

As for an attorney, I have not had an actual sit down. Have had a phone consult with a couple of them, but nothing solid. One wanted a $5,000 retainer. I happen to speak to my folks yesterday about some things. Mom thinks I should try to get full custody and at the very least, divorce her and get the current custody in writing and in place. I told her I'm getting there, but not quite there yet.

Mom also believes that the Good Lord is preparing me to have my kids full time. That the wife is going to stroke out or something and I'm going to HAVE to have them with me.

My sister was telling of some ways to get free advise and help through the County Courthouse. Have to look into that.

Had a great time with my girls today. They loved the play. We plan on doing more stuff like that. Next thing for us to do is a concert. The we went 'sightseeing' downtown. Went up on the Hemisphere Tower of Americas. I've lived here all my life and have never gone up it. We had a blast.

Coming home, I picked my buds daughter, who is my D11's best friend. The one that wife and I considered our step daughter. She's gonna spend the night, so they were excited.

After doing the stuff with the girls today, however, got a feeling of sadness. Of emptiness. Had a really good time, but something just wasn't right. I was tell my bud. The wife and I used to do everything together. Everything. Hard to get used to, still.

Mom kept asking me what it was that kept me attached to her. What was it about her. I told her that I loved who she used to be and that the hard part was that I knew that 'she' was still inside of her. Somewhere, but that I didn't think that even if she came to the realization now and wanted to make a go of it, the uphill battle with my family, our friends would be so steep, I don't think that she's that strong of a person. But who knows what the future holds.