Am I eternally hopeful or in denial....?

[Silent Chrleader]

Thank you, (((((((((Lola)))))))))!

Your words help much more than just a "bit". I know you are spot on in your advice.

I am so disappointed in myself for last nights (or rather this morning's) backslide into R talk with my H. I had been doing so well I thought! Now I am so tired (haven't slept all night) and scared for S17! H drove around everywhere we could think of looking for him this morning, and when I last talked to him on the phone, he didn't sound as cool as he had earlier. The fact that he drove around looking tells me that H is more rattled by this than he lets on.

Right now I just want my baby safe in his room!