So you haven't heard anything that all of us haven't heard. I know this is gut-wrenching man.
This should also tell you how important it is that you live for YOU, and do things for you. Also that this is her show, and the unhappiness is within her.
Yea, she's pissed about you being perfect, because she doesn't feel that way about herself right now. You can learn how to love her from a distance. You HAVE to right now.
Numb? Wall? No feelings? Hmmmm Yep, check,check,check. It really is about how YOU handle this that will play a role in the outcome of it. There are no guaruntees that this will work out. But I can guaruntee that it won't if you stay the current course.
It's okay to be pissed yourself. As long as you recognize it for what it is, and use it to your advantage. Anger is best used as a shield instead of a sword.
These things come in time, and time is your friend right now. The DR and DB books? Not really good to let your adversary in on YOUR game plan is it? Truth is? She is NOT interested in that now. But don't force her to deal with anything that she doesn't want to. She will see that as pressure, and guilt will follow.
