Wow, I just finished reading all the posts from the nice folks who follow your sitch. Quite honestly, my head is spinning. My little brain can not absorb all this. I could just imagine how you are feeling. I think you mentionned your husband is picking up the kids today. Shut the computer...get out of the house....call some friends....go have some fun....you need to change your "thoughts" for a while. You need to somehow find a little bit of inner peace somewhere...soon....too bad you don't golf...at least you could escape for 4 - 5 hrs. You will come back to your apt. and the same question will remain. The only question at this point is ...... Is the life you had before the bomb enough for you today Maria? It seems to me that that is what your husband had and has to offer....
