TOH, Sounds like you've got some things planned for today. This is a good start and they should keep you busy for a bit. As time goes on, you'll be able to find many things to do and eventually the thinking you've been doing about your h will be sidelined. It happens, but it takes time.
Enjoy the weekend.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
