Am I eternally hopeful or in denial....?

[Silent Chrleader]

Do I need to come up there and spank you?

Get your mind out of the gutter, Jeff!.........Oh, wait a minute, that's my mind!

Well it's 2am and I have been on and off the phone for the past couple hours with the Sheriff. S17 snuck out of the house and has H's truck. [I took his license but I forgot to take his keys........yep, I'm a moron!! ].

S17 answered his cell phone a couple hours ago and I told him to get his a** home, but he's still not here, so I called 911. The cops are keeping an eye out. If I officially report the truck as stolen, the cops will pull S17 over at gunpoint per procedure. And that would be a felony. Though S17 deserves it, I don't want a felony on his record. I told the Sheriff about S17's recent behavior and that his dad and I just seperated, and Sheriff agreed that S17 was obviously under stress and maybe charging him was too strong. But, I did tell the Sheriff that I would really appreciate anything they could do to scare the sh** out of him.

I so don't know what to do! S17 and I had a pact that I wouldn't threaten to kick him out and send him to his Dad, and he wouldn't threaten to leave. Whatever happened, we (S17 and I) were a family and we would stick together! But then, part of our agreement too was that we would be honest and respectful of each other, and S17 has definitely not kept up his end of the bargain!

Now, part of me wants to just take the keys and cell phone from him when he shows up and then turn around and kick him back out the door! Another attractive idea right now is to drop him on H's doorstep and let him deal with it, since I believe that this is all part of the fallout of H's behavior with S17!

But, then I don't want to go back on my part of the pact just because S17 broke his part. I want to set an example of integrity! But, I so don't need this in addition to everything else right now!!

I'm so worried about my son!! He seemed sincere in his remorse last night, but now this! I have no clue what to do!!