Mini vent! I was tidying my PC and I found 2 things I havent seen for a long time. Some photos my Dad gave me in Aug 2007 (1st bomb).. there was one of us taken 2 weeks before. He looked lovely, relaxed, beaming smile. I dont remember seeing that photo before, so that was wierd, kind of eery.
Then I found an email Dec 07, just after he left. Amazing...over a year later, I am NO WISER as to why he did this (ow?), we've had no conversation about our R, how astonishing. His email in parts said :
...i know you think that i'm doing this because i feel depressed and that i'll snap out of it soon. i'm sorry but thats not the case. i'm doing this becasue its the right thing for me, its so hard beacuase i know its the opposite of what you want...
...i'm so sorry al, i truly am....
...please don't continue to blame yourself, and i'm sorry i can't give you the answers you need.
..and still no answers a year on! He sounds strong, determined...perhaps he had her in mind giving him strength to leave and feel he was doing the right thing. He sounds kind of cold too, insisting he doesnt have depression! Maybe he didnt feel he did have, maybe he thought our R was the root of his unhappiness.
